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Light Warrior
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I'm going to start this post by making something very clear...

I am in no way a fanatical or irrational person in the slightest bit. I live an operate well within the realm of logic and reason. Rational and fact based thought and conclusion is what the vast majority of my life and experience is based upon and in no way does the account I am going to tell you of change that in any way. The ideas that I now subscribe too can be taken in certain ways that could possibly contradict these ideas  speaking of and describing myself to be made up of within. But I assure you, in no way am I someone that does not have the most firm and capable grip upon reality. Understand that I write this, my own story because I am trying to find similar accounts from others. I don't need or care for your validation it your negative crap if you don't believe. It means nothing because what's true is true and I'm kerely seeking those who have had something close to the experience I have and could possibly lend some insight as to this situation I have found myself in today. So please if you take the time to read this do not feel like I am going to respond to any garbage from anyone with some stupid crap to say thinking they'll get a back and forth over the things I know are real....so. here goes....


This all started when I was at my lowest point as a human being. It was 2015 and after a decade of thinking myself smarter than everyone and everything else that could possibly have an opinion, after spending years being on the side of reality and science backing my every thought and idea. I had found myself in need of a spiritual awakening. I had spent so much time trying to prove the non-existence of such entities like angels or demons or whatever and tried to break the faith of those I found to be beneath my intelligence level to believe in such fairy tales like God or Lucifer. It was when I was alone in the darkness and surrounded by nothing because I believed in nothing that I took a leap of faith and I begged for something, anything to reach out their hand and pull me into the light. Anything that could lift me back into the light I had for so long pushed away and condemned as nonsense. I wanted to know that something was more than myself. I needed to have something show me that I was wrong and that I was not just small, but as little as possible in the shadow of such an all powerful force that it would soon show itself to be..

For a moment I stood in the night in tears and starting to feel despair creep into my head. There would be no power or higher being present itself or show me anything. Nothing that I already knew wasn't there was about to be just popping in to prove a point to me, not could it because it simply was all in fact a load of bullcrap as it had always been and as I had always said it was...It was then in my most dreadful and desperate moment that the only true moment of what one would call divine presentation or spiritual presence would reveal itself to me. Not in any visual or physical manifestation, no....A foreign thought process...a bodiless voice inside of my mind that was not of my creation or of my production through traumatic invention through the pure necessity of the moment for such a thing to happen. No this was a true and real other world presence that simply put a line of insult and mockery towards my arrogance inside of my mind. I must make you understand here that I am the prototype of a Leo. I am the Leo. More confident and full of myself than possible....so proud that even in my lowest of lows I still could never think of myself as a fool. Even in my own conscious thought I couldn't come up with a train of thought that made me insult my own so sure ideaology. The voice simply spoke like this..."Now....we're not going to make that mistake again are we?"......."Think maybe you don't happen to know everything you fool?" ."Do you think maybe you aren't as smart as you so foolishly believed yourself to be?"...."Because this is not a courtesy you will ever receive again.."

I'll never forget the pure terror that engulfed every fiber of my being. I thought myself to be crazy. I knew I didn't create this line of thought. I knew this was foreign and was absolutely frightening to my bones....Remember? Leo.....My heart doesn't beat any fear. Nothing in this world beside being forgotten ever scared me before. The fact there was something out there that had made me feel so small....truly terrifying. But I'm that same breath I felt comfortable and I felt like I was heard and answered..I knew I was given a gift few ever receive or will be worthy of. It would not be until later on that I understood why I was so lucky as to be chosen for such a gift. But I would soon come to find that this gift would not come without it's fair share of pain and punishment. For having the ability to now believe wholly in the light.....well the darkness and all it has to fight us with was now within the realm of not just being possible,. No, it was now as real as any physical or reality based object or idea as anything I'd ever known to be true before. It would not be long before my first attacks against my soul would begin. 

In my encounters since this divine intervention, I have been personally attacked 4 times. Each time was while I was asleep. The demon one would recognize as the succubus or the demon goddess Lillith would soon show itself to be my personal attacker. I will not say that I do not know encounter other demonic entities, but they are never viable or daring enough to attack a soldier of the light such as I have now become in any state where I am fully aware and not asleep. In my sleep is the only possible way a demon at it's highest level or formidable viability could ever make an advance upon my soul.

Ok....look I get what I just said, and while I will eventually recount these attacks I must backtrack a little bit to explain why I have gone from totally empty and lost nothing to a true warrior and bearer of the light of the most high. Why I was chosen for such a divine presentation and why I was able to be shown the lighting such a way is because of who I am inside. I am like j said the pure and total leo of the zodiac. I am the Noble, honorable, loyal, true and righteous man of complete and utter strength of spirit. I am an untouchable and fearless warrior that is perfect for such a force as that who the most high can employ against the most demonic and wicked of creatures. I am in no way struck with any fear by them .They are nothing. They are weak and I absolutely challenge and dare them to face me if they are wanting to burn in the light of the most high and the power wrought within my very soul, given as a weapon and as a shield by the most high in order to be used as a defense for those who have no ability to defend themselves and to be used as a weapon of power against those so bold to accept my challenge of spirit. It was a few years of honing my righteous behavior and my ability to sense the wicked that are all around us at all times that now cower in the presence of a soldier like myself..and while this may all seem so dumb to many and so much of a difference to the live and peace of that of Christian teachings .I must tell you that it is not christian that is correct not is any other religion absolutely right about the real story. There is only light and the darkness. And yes, a war is being waged at all times between the warriors and the soldiers of light like myself and the agents and shadow dwellers that feed from darkness and are in direct wicked opposition to my master and all that is good. It's a real and constant battle. I was given the chance to feel and sense his power because I have a soul to weird a small piece of it in the name of the light. My propose is to destroy the darkness and I'm good at it. 


But here is the point. My true hauntings have been a shadow woman, that has as I've slept crawled upon my chest and tried to choke me in my sleep. 4 times she has tried over the last two years. Four times she has failed. Always as a shadow of a woman. Always I am in my own body and as if I'm watching her walk right up to me in my dreams where I actually am in the very moment, I watch her sit on my chest and I am choked until I wake up. It was not until twice in two different rooms of people who watched me start choking and fighting in my sleep did people start to believe this to be true. I was made to be a fool, a delusion and a manic crazy freaking loser. Until they watched me choke and knew I was asleep .no tricks or games .They watched all I said come true. 

This is not a joke. Demons exist. Whatever you want to call the two sides is whatever you call them .it is the light and the dark. I am a light Warrior and I spend my life protecting this from wicked acts from beings that most do not even see are there or will ever know are tearing then apart and I burn these beings to the ground and into nothingness on behalf of the most high power . The light bearer who struck down the devil or whatever you call him long ago and has watched try to corrupt us his creations even since in his revenge against the most high . People like me are the only thing this world has to stop the unseen and even the tratior humans who have chosen the left path to follow. Luciferian doctrine followers of blood magic and fallic worship. Those who would see the plans of the new world order carried through and would kill you all without a single thought. The wicked will meet someone like me who has no fear for them . Who will cut them down and never fakter in the name of the light .I suggest it you don't believe me to find the light and live righteous lives. Perhaps my master will find you worthy as he did me. It took me to lose my life and my view of myself .to be handled and humiliated into humbling who I am to be seen as ready to be given a piece of his most awesome power and had to walk through fire and trials of darkness to learn to weild it. I hope one day we out Uber the dark slaves to the usurper and his demons who only want you dead. We are outnumbered .I just am trying to find some likeminded people out there to share stories of tribulations with .I hope to find you out there.. please. I would love to talk with some of you if you find it worth your time.. 

All others who have some bull pucky to speak....I do not fear you or care...you will get no response and mean nothing to me at all..so have fun poking holes or main fun. It's only showing your sleep insecurity. How much of a shell of a man you are to someone like myself. So poke away children.
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It happens while you sleep, pinned down unable to move, sleep paralysis. Those afflicted with sleep paralysis are often unable to move their bodies or speak immediately upon waking up. This can last one to several minutes. People experiencing sleep paralysis may also feel a weight on their chest or a choking feeling. 

In the past, it was believed that demons caused sleep paralysis by holding people down or sitting on their chest. This was often due to hallucinations, which are a common symptom during sleep paralysis because the brain is still in a dream state. People have reported seeing ghosts, demons and other strange apparitions while experiencing paralysis.

https://www.livescience.com/50876-sleep-paralysis.html
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#3
Lightheart25.

I read your post last night and I wanted to post to it then but I had a previous engagement in the morning I needed to attend to so I needed to bite my tongue and get my sleep. Now that the engagement is out of the way and I'm fully awake, I am ready to retort to this wall of text. I will break down your post so it is easier for both of us to understand.

Quote:I'm going to start this post by making something very clear...

Usually not a good way to start a post but I would like to Welcome you to Talk Paranormal. I hope you have read our rules here since you started making this post as soon after you were registered. I was watching.

Quote:I am in no way a fanatical or irrational person in the slightest bit. I live an operate well within the realm of logic and reason. Rational and fact based thought and conclusion is what the vast majority of my life and experience is based upon and in no way does the account I am going to tell you of change that in any way. The ideas that I now subscribe too can be taken in certain ways that could possibly contradict these ideas  speaking of and describing myself to be made up of within. But I assure you, in no way am I someone that does not have the most firm and capable grip upon reality. Understand that I write this, my own story because I am trying to find similar accounts from others. I don't need or care for your validation it your negative crap if you don't believe. It means nothing because what's true is true and I'm kerely seeking those who have had something close to the experience I have and could possibly lend some insight as to this situation I have found myself in today. So please if you take the time to read this do not feel like I am going to respond to any garbage from anyone with some stupid crap to say thinking they'll get a back and forth over the things I know are real....so. here goes....

Again, a rough introduction of sorts. Kinda turns people away with this sort of attitude and it somewhat makes people think you're just not serious into your topic and that you won't deal with debates if it doesn't go your way. I implore you to read everything and take in what everyone has to say. Knowledge is ever changing and new knowledge can always replace current knowledge if it is indeed appropriate.

You said you are no way fanatical but as I read, that word does indeed apply to your wall of text whether you accept it or not. Divine intervention is in terms, fanatical. If you really live in the realm of logic and reason, why the need for a divine intervention because that usually goes against reason and logic to begin with. Also, if you really didn't need any validation of anything, you wouldn't have made this post so foremost, the entire premise of the nature is self-validation but you're looking for only acceptable answers that only you will deem as correct which can and will cause a continuity issue after a while. For someone who has seen the light, such a negative and bleak introduction.

Quote:For a moment I stood in the night in tears and starting to feel despair creep into my head. There would be no power or higher being present itself or show me anything. Nothing that I already knew wasn't there was about to be just popping in to prove a point to me, not could it because it simply was all in fact a load of bullcrap as it had always been and as I had always said it was...It was then in my most dreadful and desperate moment that the only true moment of what one would call divine presentation or spiritual presence would reveal itself to me. Not in any visual or physical manifestation, no....A foreign thought process...a bodiless voice inside of my mind that was not of my creation or of my production through traumatic invention through the pure necessity of the moment for such a thing to happen. No this was a true and real other world presence that simply put a line of insult and mockery towards my arrogance inside of my mind. I must make you understand here that I am the prototype of a Leo. I am the Leo. More confident and full of myself than possible....so proud that even in my lowest of lows I still could never think of myself as a fool. Even in my own conscious thought I couldn't come up with a train of thought that made me insult my own so sure ideaology. The voice simply spoke like this..."Now....we're not going to make that mistake again are we?"......."Think maybe you don't happen to know everything you fool?" ."Do you think maybe you aren't as smart as you so foolishly believed yourself to be?"...."Because this is not a courtesy you will ever receive again.."

I'll never forget the pure terror that engulfed every fiber of my being. I thought myself to be crazy. I knew I didn't create this line of thought. I knew this was foreign and was absolutely frightening to my bones....Remember? Leo.....My heart doesn't beat any fear. Nothing in this world beside being forgotten ever scared me before. The fact there was something out there that had made me feel so small....truly terrifying. But I'm that same breath I felt comfortable and I felt like I was heard and answered..I knew I was given a gift few ever receive or will be worthy of. It would not be until later on that I understood why I was so lucky as to be chosen for such a gift. But I would soon come to find that this gift would not come without it's fair share of pain and punishment. For having the ability to now believe wholly in the light.....well the darkness and all it has to fight us with was now within the realm of not just being possible,. No, it was now as real as any physical or reality based object or idea as anything I'd ever known to be true before. It would not be long before my first attacks against my soul would begin.

In my encounters since this divine intervention, I have been personally attacked 4 times. Each time was while I was asleep. The demon one would recognize as the succubus or the demon goddess Lillith would soon show itself to be my personal attacker. I will not say that I do not know encounter other demonic entities, but they are never viable or daring enough to attack a soldier of the light such as I have now become in any state where I am fully aware and not asleep. In my sleep is the only possible way a demon at it's highest level or formidable viability could ever make an advance upon my soul.

Aside from the depression because of your recognition of self-worth, you started to have night terrors which you deem as bullcrap. Hate to break it to you but sometimes bullcrap happens. It's what you learn from it that matters.

So from what you initially believed before, it sounds like you hate yourself that you're accepting of the divine intervention that you've been receiving as of late. What's wrong in accepting the impossible? What beliefs do you have that makes your inner logic go "no!" because you haven't accepted it fully. Being a Leo also has nothing to do with who you are. If you believe in horoscopes, I question your logic.

I can only deduce that you think of Lillith attacked you 4 separate times because that's the only one that would make sense to you. If you've given it a name, then it's easier to understand for yourself and accept it because the unknown is frightening. As a Light Warrior, why are you frightened of such an entity? If you read what a succubus actually does then you know how to combat it completely. This means that you indulge yourself of the flesh often so that leads me to believe you still have some soul searching of yourself to better yourself of this lust.

I want to know what gift you're speaking of and who exactly gave it to you. What deal was struck. You're rather vague on this.

Sleep paralysis is so real and shocking that you can mistake it for paranormal easily. Here is how it works. When you enter deep rem asleep, your body releases gamma-aminobutyric acid (GABA) and glycine to your brain that basically numbs your body so when you dream, you're not flopping around in your sleep. What happens is this, when you are abruptly awoken while in your rem state, the neurotransmitters stop for a moment to allow a restart of your cognitive functions. One you've awoken, the neurotransmitters will still firing again and most of the time, you'll go back to sleep but if you stay awake, you'll feel the affects of the neurotransmitters and your body will go limp but while completely cognitive. The paralysis will last anywhere from a few seconds to 3 minutes. Can be quite scary and shocking as it doesn't happen too often and especially after a bad dream.

This isn't a theory, this is proven fact. This was proven only recently so this knowledge more or less be new to you to understand. If you wish for sources, I will gladly cite them for you.

Quote:Ok....look I get what I just said, and while I will eventually recount these attacks I must backtrack a little bit to explain why I have gone from totally empty and lost nothing to a true warrior and bearer of the light of the most high. Why I was chosen for such a divine presentation and why I was able to be shown the lighting such a way is because of who I am inside. I am like j said the pure and total leo of the zodiac. I am the Noble, honorable, loyal, true and righteous man of complete and utter strength of spirit. I am an untouchable and fearless warrior that is perfect for such a force as that who the most high can employ against the most demonic and wicked of creatures. I am in no way struck with any fear by them .They are nothing. They are weak and I absolutely challenge and dare them to face me if they are wanting to burn in the light of the most high and the power wrought within my very soul, given as a weapon and as a shield by the most high in order to be used as a defense for those who have no ability to defend themselves and to be used as a weapon of power against those so bold to accept my challenge of spirit. It was a few years of honing my righteous behavior and my ability to sense the wicked that are all around us at all times that now cower in the presence of a soldier like myself..and while this may all seem so dumb to many and so much of a difference to the live and peace of that of Christian teachings .I must tell you that it is not christian that is correct not is any other religion absolutely right about the real story. There is only light and the darkness. And yes, a war is being waged at all times between the warriors and the soldiers of light like myself and the agents and shadow dwellers that feed from darkness and are in direct wicked opposition to my master and all that is good. It's a real and constant battle. I was given the chance to feel and sense his power because I have a soul to weird a small piece of it in the name of the light. My propose is to destroy the darkness and I'm good at it.

Most high? This is your ego talking. You don't start at Lightwarrior Level 250, you start at level 1. This ego of yours will get you in trouble because you'll overthink straight to being outright defensive strategies to just prove you're not wrong in any way when you could be wrong to begin with. Furthermore, with such an ego, why do you need an outside force to help you in any way? Aren't you powerful enough by yourself? Did you really need a hand from all things your logic is telling you is bullcrap? See the contradictions yet? You say you're fearless but you said you were in utter terror in the previous paragraph. What changed?

To expect everything else to be weak and you challenge them to dare to face you will be your downfall. There are many people who have this blind ego that they don't even know what they are getting themselves into and will ultimately fail since they don't see the error of their ways. You say you are a soldier. Did you receive training or are you just put on the battlefield just like that? If you've no training, how are you to face what you don't even know what the tactics are? You didn't even know how to fight off a succubus which tells me you know very little. It's all grandstanding from my point of view. This is why I say you will fail. You need training.

A war may be waged at all times but only to the individual. We all have our purposes. Whether to be the front line of defense and the voice of reason and logic... or just simply a meat shield. You want to destroy the darkness but you accepted the darkness as you said previously. So, are you fighting with yourself in this war? A civil war for your own soul through divine intervention? Sounds like someone else is pulling the strings and you just haven't noticed it yet. If you're really good at it, you would have noticed this as well.

Quote:But here is the point. My true hauntings have been a shadow woman, that has as I've slept crawled upon my chest and tried to choke me in my sleep. 4 times she has tried over the last two years. Four times she has failed. Always as a shadow of a woman. Always I am in my own body and as if I'm watching her walk right up to me in my dreams where I actually am in the very moment, I watch her sit on my chest and I am choked until I wake up. It was not until twice in two different rooms of people who watched me start choking and fighting in my sleep did people start to believe this to be true. I was made to be a fool, a delusion and a manic crazy freaking loser. Until they watched me choke and knew I was asleep .no tricks or games .They watched all I said come true.

This is not a joke. Demons exist. Whatever you want to call the two sides is whatever you call them .it is the light and the dark. I am a light Warrior and I spend my life protecting this from wicked acts from beings that most do not even see are there or will ever know are tearing then apart and I burn these beings to the ground and into nothingness on behalf of the most high power . The light bearer who struck down the devil or whatever you call him long ago and has watched try to corrupt us his creations even since in his revenge against the most high . People like me are the only thing this world has to stop the unseen and even the tratior humans who have chosen the left path to follow. Luciferian doctrine followers of blood magic and fallic worship. Those who would see the plans of the new world order carried through and would kill you all without a single thought. The wicked will meet someone like me who has no fear for them . Who will cut them down and never fakter in the name of the light .I suggest it you don't believe me to find the light and live righteous lives. Perhaps my master will find you worthy as he did me. It took me to lose my life and my view of myself .to be handled and humiliated into humbling who I am to be seen as ready to be given a piece of his most awesome power and had to walk through fire and trials of darkness to learn to weild it. I hope one day we out Uber the dark slaves to the usurper and his demons who only want you dead. We are outnumbered .I just am trying to find some likeminded people out there to share stories of tribulations with .I hope to find you out there.. please. I would love to talk with some of you if you find it worth your time..

Remember the strings I said someone was pulling? Take in the account that someone has you by the throat and can snuff you out at any moment. Whatever deal you made will be your undoing. I find it rather humorous that you mention sleep paralysis again as proof when it's all a dreamstate of your mind's concoction.

When someone says it isn't a joke, there's a high chance it is. Especially when the seriousness of this entire wall of text isn't consistent. Demons exist in many forms. They range from being wicked and can be deceitful as in pretending to be a master of light trying to teach someone false teaching to break down said person's psyche and seeing how you're deviating from your own logic and reasoning, I think you're being taken for a ride. As for this master of yours, you don't need anyone to tell you what to do so why do you accept him? Especially when it's against everything you once believed. If you really want to learn how to defend against darkness, you need to be taught to not buy into the horseshit you seem to have jumped into and currently swimming in.

Quote:All others who have some bull pucky to speak....I do not fear you or care...you will get no response and mean nothing to me at all..so have fun poking holes or main fun. It's only showing your sleep insecurity. How much of a shell of a man you are to someone like myself. So poke away children.

Finally, and I was expecting this outro which is basically another rendition of the intro you made. If I may reiterate this, you won't accept anyone's retort if you deem it not agreeable. If we really mean nothing, why take the time to post this entire wall of text? You want a reaction, you want something. I think you have the egg shell of a person and can break easily since you were depressed because of loneliness and low self-esteem back in 2015. If someone of your intellect followed reason and logic unconditionally and was hit with the challenge of depression and it led to believing in the the impossible; you have failed miserably.

We need more intellectuals. Only then, can a discussion can truly be debated with adept knowledge and civility.

I don't expect you to take positively from this retort in fact, I expect you to react negatively because it's what your ego will only allow you to do. However, if you are higher than your own ego because we all have the ability to better ourselves and change if we are willing, please don't go on and on forever in explaining how wrong I am. That would be wasting both our time. The floor is yours.
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