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#1
Hello, I am new here. I have just registered to write my experiences down and get it off my chest.

I consider myself to be a critic thinker and I like to believe everything can be explained with science.

As a child I have experienced many deja vu's and lucid dreams. As a teenager and young adult I became quite the master in lucid dreaming and in those dreams I was often confronted with information that was buried deep inside my conscience. Nothing out of the ordinary and all could be explained. I have always been someone with a very open mind, meaning that I sense my surroundings more intense than the average person. I am aware of things that others never notice. Because of a bad childhood I've felt depressed and alone for many years. Up until I was a young adult when something inside me just came crashing down. I had to deal with my trauma's and during that process my mind seemed to open up even further, sometimes having experiences close to a psychosis.

By the age of 25 I was doing alright and I felt happy about my life. I didn't feel as open as the years before.
I am thirty years old right now and what bothers me is a vision I have had a few years ago when my life was already calm. I had two visions that year. The first one being not very important although it was very clear a vision.
The second vision happened when I was on my bicycle. That year I had started working at a vineyard and sometimes there would be this guy in his early thirties working alongside me. He was different, very different, and I felt that I could understand him. We would sometimes talk about opinions and ideas. Then for a while he was absent and then suddenly one day he came by again and we sat together in the grass and I pointed at a little robin in the shrubbery. He looked at me with a slightly weird face and said that I always knew where all the birds were, even the tiniest. Which was true and I was delighted that he noticed my keen sense of detail. The day after he didn't come by the vineyard and I was a bit disappointed because he was good company. There was nothing romantically going on or even a real friendship or anything, just two people with some kind of connection. At the end of the day I went home on my bicycle. I always rode by his apartment building. It was a very tall building. Right at the moment I passed it and I looked at the building I had a very real daydream. I could see the stairs leading up to the roof and the stairs became bigger and I was suddenly climbing the stairs heading towards the roof, but it didn't feel like I was doing it. It wasn't me. I did not like this daydream at all, it gave me a terrible feeling and I tried to shake it off. I didn't understand why I was having this daydream because I wasn't depressed anymore and I didn't want to kill myself. It bothered me a lot and I had to put in real effort not to think about it anymore.
I often think back to this moment. It was a vision and I did nothing. I keep thinking that I could have gone up to the building, rang his doorbell and just talked to him. And I didn't do that, I really did nothing.

The last day he came by the vineyard he came to say goodbye without me knowing it. He knew that I was good at sensing things and he acknowledged it to me. And I, the stupid one, felt good about myself and didn't sense why he was sitting there with me in the grass. And I keep wondering if he wanted me to come by his place and talk to him. I wonder if he had been sitting in his living room, waiting the entire day. Thinking about what he would do later that night.
I feel completely heartbroken everytime I think about it.


I haven't had any visions since but I try to be more aware of them. I really don't want to make the same mistake again.

Thank you for reading and please comment if you have any thoughts on this.
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#2
welcome to the forum! I have had a few prophetic dreams on occasion. usually they have to do with me getting something in the mail that I ordered recently, and when I have the dream I generally know I will get the whatever it is in the next couple days.
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#3
I tell you "Chocolate" I too have these type of visions. The first one I had happened when I was a kid about 8-9 years old. I remember both of my parents standing on the inside of our property with them both leaning on the chain link 5ft tall fence, talking to a neighbor. I was also on the outside of the fence as well and remember looking up at my parents. I had some vision at that point and remember passing out. When I awoke I was in my house and my mother was whipping my face with a cold washcloth. She asked me what happened and I told her.

I said I looked at dad and saw him as a old man, shrunken, in tears while sitting and looking very thin with a cane. Now my father was like 5'-11" tall, about 180 lbs, and had great muscles. At 70 my father reshingled our home by himself. He would toss two brinks of long shingles on his shoulder and balance that and walk up a ladder like it was nothing. Heck I couldn't manage to carry half of one brick at a time myself at 18 years old. Now my dad died at age 76 from successive strokes and when he died at age 76 he had shrunk to 5'-9" and was about 130 lbs. I had to dead lift him out of a tub/bath in my arms. He had a constant pain/noise in his head and was on meds to cut the pain but was in tears most of the time. He use to not take all the pain meds he should so he could talk to the family even though he was in constant pain.

My mother remembered my vision of how my dad would die, and the details were dead on. I have had a few more of these type of visions over time, but this one always remains the most clear to me. Sadly most of my visions are about someone's death, and I don't seem to be able to do anything about it at all. I only seem to remember the vision after the event happens. Now I always tell someone about my visions and they remember the details as well. So at least I know I am not just making it up, that helps me dealing with it.

I except my "gift" abilities, but some times I think of them as a "Curse" as well. It seems to run in my families and sadly both of my sons seem to have many of these "abilities" as well. I have tried to embrace these experiences so they are not scared of them, and help them understand their abilities. I would rather they understand their abilities and be able to deal with the experiences. My own parents tried to play down or not deal with these type of experiences, I don't follow that approach myself.
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#4
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#5
Thank you for replying and welcoming me.
I will look into this Kuji, thank you ShadowAvatar.


(02-12-2017, 02:43 PM)ByGoneYrs120 Wrote: I tell you "Chocolate" I too have these type of visions. The first one I had happened when I was a kid about 8-9 years old. I remember both of my parents standing on the inside of our property with them both leaning on the chain link 5ft tall fence, talking to a neighbor. I was also on the outside of the fence as well and remember looking up at my parents. I had some vision at that point and remember passing out. When I awoke I was in my house and my mother was whipping my face with a cold washcloth. She asked me what happened and I told her.

I said I looked at dad and saw him as a old man, shrunken, in tears while sitting and looking very thin with a cane. Now my father was like 5'-11" tall, about 180 lbs, and had great muscles. At 70 my father reshingled our home by himself. He would toss two brinks of long shingles on his shoulder and balance that and walk up a ladder like it was nothing. Heck I couldn't manage to carry half of one brick at a time myself at 18 years old. Now my dad died at age 76 from successive strokes and when he died at age 76 he had shrunk to 5'-9" and was about 130 lbs. I had to dead lift him out of a tub/bath in my arms. He had a constant pain/noise in his head and was on meds to cut the pain but was in tears most of the time. He use to not take all the pain meds he should so he could talk to the family even though he was in constant pain.

My mother remembered my vision of how my dad would die, and the details were dead on. I have had a few more of these type of visions over time, but this one always remains the most clear to me. Sadly most of my visions are about someone's death, and I don't seem to be able to do anything about it at all. I only seem to remember the vision after the event happens. Now I always tell someone about my visions and they remember the details as well. So at least I know I am not just making it up, that helps me dealing with it.

I except my "gift" abilities, but some times I think of them as a "Curse" as well. It seems to run in my families and sadly both of my sons seem to have many of these "abilities" as well. I have tried to embrace these experiences so they are not scared of them, and help them understand their abilities. I would rather they understand their abilities and be able to deal with the experiences. My own parents tried to play down or not deal with these type of experiences, I don't follow that approach myself.

Thank you for telling me about your visions. Do they occur while you are awake and do you always know when it's a vision? It seems that there can be a long time between your visions and it happening. Is that the reason why you remember only after it happening that you had a vision about it?
You also say that you don't seem to be able to do anything about it. Have you ever tried to do anything about something from happening or was it always completely out of your control?
It is what I am wondering, if I were able to do something about it or if I will be able to do something about it with future visions. I also sometimes think that maybe I won't have any more visions because I screwed up last time.

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Many times my visions happen while I am awake sitting somewhere. Like waiting in car for someone or that type of situation. Now I also have them when I day dreaming or starting to fall asleep as well. Now for me I have to either write down what I saw or tell someone, because I begin to forget the details. Now once something happened I seem to have instant recall in detail, but not until after the event happens.

I should also say that sometimes these visions don't make sense, and only when the event happens does it all make sense and in perspective. It has been a while since I last had a vision.
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